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Haha. I’m so happy =D!

Omg. Omg. Omg. Omg. Woooooo!
Kay, now I gotta calm down and tell y’all before I go on another happy…spaz. Lmfao.

So yesterday I was so confused.
M had text me saying, “Happy New Year! I hope I can say the same next year aswel”
And the day before that he’d told me he’d already gotten my Birthday present… My Birthday is in JUNE. Lol.
So I guess the whole “I’m scared of commitment” came back because he was thinking we were going to last for a longgg time.. And it’s just… I don’t know. I freaked out again.
It was like… It’s January… So he’s already thinking 5 months in advance. 5 months! My longest relationship is 2 months! Loool.
So yeah, it scared the crap outta me and I freaked.

Yesterday night, I was talking to a very close friend about it. I couldn’t talk to Sa because she’d just been asked out by a guy that lives a few hours away… She met him through her step sister and she said yes. So she was over-the-moon, and I didn’t want to ruin her mood.
So the friend I was talking to helped alot… Especially because she’s alot like me and her boyfriend always talks about having kids and stuff, and that scares the crap out of her too.
When she went for her dinner, her words stuck in my head.. “Just treat everyday like it’s your last with him”
And she was right… I should.

So when he came online a few minutes later, I acted normal around him. He made me laugh and we had a very good conversation.
Like, an hour in to our convo, Sa phoned me and started telling me how she got off with her boyfriend and stuff. She makes me laughhh.

After our phone call, I was really tired. So I hung up and told M I had to go…

M: :O! You’re leaving me? You don’t love me!
Me: Pshtt. You don’t love meee eitherrr!
M: Yes I do… I just haven’t told you. I’ve always loved you.
M: … I Love You. I’d never leave you… Apart from when food is involved, obviously. Lol =D
**I almost fall off my chair with excitement**

He has never said that beforeee. He’s one of those guys that make sure he really does love someone before they actually say it…. So now I know he means it  (:
I said, “I love you too… I’ve never actually said that and actually meant it, so feel special.”
I went offline about 11pm and we texted until 2am.
I couldn’t sleep last night… That big old smile wouldn’t get off my face =D

When he said that, all of my “commitment” worries just… Flew away.
I hope I am with him for my Birthday… I hope I am with him next year…
I hope I’m with him forever.

2008, here I come!