The Teen Blog

So I gotta make this quick, I’m going round my Nan’s in about 30mins.

Last night, I was totally confused about M and stuff.
And Mark was right… I was beating myself up about it.
After talking to Sa for 3 hours on the phone, I felt a little better but she’s not the best with advice.
She said, “You meet up with him and he’ll get the wrong impression - so don’t!”
Then the conversation changed to a different subject, and even though she made me laugh - I couldn’t help thinking about it.
I said, “I’m going to go have a bath, speak to you on Monday,”

After that, Slutty came online.
“Great,” I thought, “This is all I need. Her to go on and on about how brilliant HER love life is going,”
She’s got a new boyfriend and she says their relationship rocks.
She sensed something was wrong in the first 2 minutes of our conversation.
“You’re normally hyper. What’s wrong, Katie?” she said.
So I told her. I told her everything.
Every little detail. How I felt, how he felt, how I couldn’t feel.
She helped alot.
I mean… Loads. I couldn’t have done it without her, to be honest.
So I’m changing her name from Slutty to “CO”
CO helped me so much it was unbelievable.
“You have to let yourself fall for someone, Katie,” she said, “And if it doesn’t work out - that’s fine. Then at least, next time, you learn from your mistakes… Not every guy is set out to break your heart. You shouldn’t be scared of love. It should be one of the best feelings of your life. Give him a chance… Meet up with him.”
She said loads of other stuff but cba to write it all down.
All I know is that it helped… And I’m so happy to have her as a friend.

Soon after, M came online.
For some reason, I felt relaxed. I felt calm around him and I let the conversation flow.
He told me not to push him away - and I didn’t.
I remembered what CO said… And I don’t want to end up alone.
M won’t hurt me. I know he won’t.

So now, I promise you all… I’ll change my ways.
And even if it’s not with M, I will let myself fall next time.

- Katie x

P.S After all, who wants to be a cat lady, right Annoymousgirl? Lmfao