The Teen Blog

So last night, I actually couldn’t stop crying.
In case you didn’t read my last post, M and I broke up.
I finished with him and it upset me alot. If ya wanna know why, you’re just going to have to read my last post because I can’t be bothered to go through it again.
I thought I was going to be okay after a while… Then I went to bed at 11pm and I just burst into tears again.
I didn’t want to be alone.
I cried for about 10 minutes and then fell asleep.

I woke up this morning and really didn’t want to be here.
I didn’t want to go to school because I knew I wouldn’t be my normal hyper, bubbly self so people would start asking me what’s wrong.

Got to school and just… Didn’t talk. I was in a daze. I felt… Lost. Numb.
We had assembly first thing. Normally, I hate assembly, but it gave me a chance to just… Sit in peace and think.. And it would actually look like I was listening to the stupid Head Teacher blab on about how we should stop bullying the teachers and crap.
After that, first lesson was Business Studies.
S kept asking me what was wrong, and when I said, “Nothing” she said, “Bullsh*t! Tell me!”… No, I can’t lie.
I just said I was tired. She didn’t believe me… But I didn’t want to talk to her about it.
Second lesson was Media.
My mad Media teacher was off ill today, so we had a sub.
He actually knew what he was talking about and made the lesson very fun.
I wished I could forget everything and just have fun, but all I could do was sit there staring at the wall.
Occasionally, Sa would try to start a conversation with me but she knew that I was upset, so she didn’t want to push me too far.
I felt like crying. I could feel the tears in my eyes as I thought about how much fun me and M had had together.
I thought about how well he got on with my parents and when he came round my house.
A tear rolled down my cheek but I wiped it away before anyone noticed.

I was glad to hear the bell go for break. It was raining, so if I suddenly burst into tears, no-one would notice and they’d just think it was the rain.
Cunning plan, eh?
I told CO what happened. She was very sympathetic and gave me a long hug. I felt the tears coming back, but held them in.
Then Apple came and pulled me away from the group.
He asked me if I was okay and what had happened.
I didn’t want to speak to him at first, I mean, he’s a guy… He wouldn’t understand.
I told him anyways, because I trust him… And to my surprise, he actually listened. He looked at me the whole time and there was no subject change to football.
He gave me some advice. It helped a lot. Then he made me laugh. A lot.
Suddenly, I felt better.
He was all I needed… I couldn’t believe that he just… Made everything seem so… Minor. He made everything better.
I’m so grateful I have him. I couldn’t have done it without him.

Next lesson was PE. We played Badminton. All my friends made me feel so much better and we had such a fun time.

After school, walking to my car, Apple and more of my guy friends made me feel so loved and they made me laugh.
I love them all so much…

So today I have learnt…

I might miss M, but it’s not the end of the world. I still have the most amazing friends in the universe, and I love them to bits.
I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for them.
Thanks, guys.