The Teen Blog

So… Friday night sucked.
It really fricking did.
My friend was all, “Muffin is talking about you.”
Muffin is a guy that moved to America. We went out for a while. I really loved him. But we had an argument and split. I couldn’t deal with the pain so I blocked him.
We haven’t spoken in a few years.
And, without thinking, I just… Unblocked him.
It was just… Poof. Magic. I know I shouldn’t have. I know. But I did.
We talked for a while. He said sorry. I forgave him. We’re friends. It’s cool.

Saturday we celebrated mums birthday with a family friend and her husband.
We went to an Italian Restaurant and basically.. Got pissed.
Very fun. Very happy. Mum had a good day.

Today I went went round my Nans house and got bored.
She told me once again I was getting too skinny and should ‘eat more’.

Came home. Had dinner. Went on MSN. M was set as away.
Sa called me.
M came online.
He didn’t talk to me.
So I didn’t talk to him.
10 minutes later, he talks.
It was, “Hi” then, “Hi” and… That’s it.
I told Sa and she said we couldn’t carry on like this.
So this is how it went with me and M..

Me: We’re not the same, are we?
M: No. I don’t know why.. Things at home. School. Just.. Life.
Me: I don’t think we should… Anymore.
M: I know. I understand. I just need a break from everything.
Me: Okay. I’ll always be your friend. So if you ever need to talk - I’m here.
M: Thanks.

That’s it.
Poof.
Gone.
Finished.
Forever.
He may think it’s just a  ”Break”, but to me.. It’s gone.
That’s it. I can’t deal with this shit anymore.
I don’t want to be here.
I cried on the phone to Sa.
She tried to help.
I need alcohol.
My make up is running.
And I don’t care.
Fuck it.

Bye.