It’s Time To Be A Big Girl Now And Big Girls Don’t Cry - Posted In (1.0) General/Day-2-day Updates

Post: It’s Time To Be A Big Girl Now And Big Girls Don’t Cry

Hey,
Banana. Banana. Banana. Banana. Okay. So what?
I love him.
I can’t keep away.
It’s too much, I can’t handle it.
I love him. I try and keep away but I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.
I’ll just have to face that I like him and he… He likes someone else.
I guess I’m not that good at lying to myself anymore.

This morning I was sure I didn’t like him. I looked at him and I did feel something in my stomach but I ignored it.
He talked to me. I got butterflies. I told myself it was nothing to worry about.
He put his arm on my shoulder and leant on me for about 15 minutes… In those 15 minutes my heart, soul and body melted.
My legs felt like they were going to give in. His smell made my blood run cold. Not because he smelt horrible. Because he didn’t. He smelt wonderful. But it was because I hadn’t smelt him in about a week and just to smell him made me smile.
I just can’t give up on him like that.
Why do I want to get hurt?
I talked to Red Apple about it.
He told me that he didn’t think Banana liked his ex anymore but idk… I don’t wanna ask. Because when Banana says, “Yeah I still like her,” it will kill me.

After school he “ignored” me because I called him a girl… It really was by mistake!! LOL.
He wasn’t pissed off. He was just like, “Damn, where’s Katie? I haven’t seen her in ages,” when I’m right next to him.
He knows I HATE being ignored so that’s why he done it.
I went off and then came back.
Me: Banana?
Him: Yeah?
Me: OMG. YOU TALKED TO ME!!!
Him: Ah shit. I didn’t I was uhh -
Me: YOU TALKED TO ME!!
And then I kissed him on the cheek.
I saw the moment… And took it, lol.

Love You,
Katie x

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